Well, first I took the children to Alley Park to play. (Doesn't every mother do that with sick kids?) Since we couldn't play with other children at least we could be outside. I knew the roof would fall in if we didn't stop the multiple meltdowns, so I took them exploring. No one cried. Amazing the healing power of God's good creation. We even found a new, hand-made bridge to an island I have always secretly wanted to explore. What a gift of unspeakable joy to my soul; I know God cares about little things -two boards and a cinder block never looked so good. So off we went on grand adventures and then home to the still-flooded basement.
I think this time I finally got the hint. Sometimes I have to do what I do not want to do. Oh, that is hard for me to bend. The running decision was relatively easy. I always choose to finish no matter what. But other ones, like being patient with sick, un-grateful children, are much harder. Being thankful for the flooded basement, not once, but twice and trusting that God is in control, not so easy.
I'm glad I kept running. Finally at mile 9, I found my pace and my hamstrings being to loosen. It was still hot, but I was at peace. I made my choice to continue. The exertion was at times almost un-bearable but there was no going back. I needed all 11 miles to come to the place of understanding the importance of making the right choice, even if it is not at all what I want. Jesus told people to take up their crosses and following Him. I thankfully have never attended a real crucifixion so I cannot truly understand what that means. However, I suspect it means that I must be disciplined enough to obey, even when I do not want to. Ah, the gentleness of God in using 11 hot miles, two tight hamstrings, three sick kids, and two days of basement flooding.
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